What was I thinking?

It all started when Isaac spilled his Cheerios on the living room rug. That was on Monday morning. I vacuumed them up, and my foot caught the corner of the rug, revealing another mess underneath. I moved the rug and started cleaning there, which made me think that maybe I should just roll up the entire area rug, and sweep the entire living room floor too. So, I did just that. And as I was putting the rug back, I saw that there was a huge area underneath the couch that looked dirty. So, I pushed the couch back up against the wall and swept there too. And if you're thinking to yourself that my house must have been quite a mess, you're right, it was! Just read some of my past entries on here about my desire to clean less... When I was done sweeping the living room, I looked around and saw how open and bright and relaxing and peaceful the living room looked with the couches pushed up against the walls. And that's when I decided to rearrange the living room furniture... And Hector thinks I'm losing it when I tell him things like "Isaac spilled his Cheerios today, so I decided to rearrange the living room furniture." HA! :-)

I thought my little project wouldn't take more than an hour. But when 2:00 p.m. came around, I knew that I was in over my head. I had to stop. I had to go get the kids from school. When Hector got home from work, he asked me why I rearranged the furniture, and I told him that it all started when Isaac spilled his Cheerios. See, I'm not losing it! It all makes perfect sense.....

On Tuesday, I woke up and started moving things around some more. And that's when I realized that the living room rug really didn't look good in the living room. I rolled it up and moved it into the dining room, and then moved the dining room rug into the living room. But in order to get the living room rug into the dining room, I had to move all of the dining room furniture out of the dining room. And in order to move the china cabinet specifically, I had to take everything out of it. And so, today (yes, it's now Thursday) I found myself sitting on the floor in my dining room, cleaning out the rest of the items from my china cabinet, asking myself questions like "What was I thinking?" and "Where did it all go wrong?" and "How did I get myself into such a mess?" as well as saying things to myself such as "So that's where that went!" and "So that's what it looks like behind a piece of furniture I haven't moved in 3 1/2 years." Yep, it was at that point today that I took this picture:

Things were a mess... Eventually, 2:00 rolled around again, and then before I knew it Hector got home from work, again... And when I saw Hector walk in the door I asked him "What was I thinking?" to which he responded "I don't know, but I'm hoping that you can figure it all out on your own!" Deep down, I know he was just kidding.

Recently, someone I know and love has confided in me that their life is a mess. This person can't seem to find their way through the turmoil and confusion surrounding them. This person feels overwhelmed by chaos and disorder. And the more this person tries to get out of the mess, the bigger the mess seems to become. This person has asked me questions like "What was I thinking?" and "Where did it all go wrong?" and "How did I get myself into such a mess?" This person feels alone and scared. This person has been trying to figure it all out on their own, and has come to realize they can't do it by themself.

A really good friend of mine once told me that she thinks God gives us friends to remind us that we're not meant to go through life alone, trying to do everything on our own. I was reminded of this friend's words when this other person confided in me that they felt all alone. We're not meant to go through life by ourselves. And even in the times when we feel alone, we never truly are, because even when we feel like we can't reach out to our earthly friends, we always have the gift of prayer to reach out to our Heavenly friend. It is my sincere hope and prayer that, with the help of God and a few good friends, this person will be able to work through the mess that has become their life, and one day find themself in a bright, open, peaceful, relaxing place that makes them truly happy.